I'm tired? No.
i dont know why i cant feel anything after this day. After i have a fool-presentation today and i'm not so desperate than the other semester. Weird,huh? But i think, maybe i have more power of my heart to hold my emotion. I remember when my first time i go to college. i have no skill on drawing (actually, until now T0T). I'm so desperate, always spechless, full of negative thinking, and cannot enjoy myself and all of the people around there. On Second semester, i can, a little bit, control my emotion and try to positive thinking. That was sooo hard. Im still desperate, a bit. And this time, third semester. i dont know why i can enjoy myself. maybe in this semester, i have a friends, i mean, i have a lot of friends, but this, i can enjoyful myself. Not really.
And today is the last day for third semester. i'm waiting for my score for this semester. i hope it's not dissapoint me. Hope so.
I want to change. I dont want to always confuse, desperate, and negative thinking. i want to enjoy myself, and not punish myself anytime i have somethings different and fail.
Fire,
Noel
